Glimmer of Hope

Lately I have been questioning whether I am on the correct path. I've been feeling like I can't do what I need to and thinking that perhaps it just isn't what I am supposed to do or that I am just not capable of completing this task. But you know, the Lord has such a sweet and subtle way of answering those heart questions.

I sat at my computer plucking away at a story that I hoped would become a glimpse of something in Him, since it is Thursday, and I haven't posted a blog yet this week. The phone rang and the number showing on the screen was one I didn't recognize. I answered and knew right away this was a woman who I had told to call this evening. So I left my story and went into the living room to sit in quiet where we could talk.

This woman has a child with some issues that we have also faced with one of our children. She needed encouragement. She needed to hear that she was doing this well. She needed to know that she did not make a mistake and there is hope.

As we talked I shared from the past and she shared from the present. We talked about people in common and ones who were helpful. We laughed at similar memories of different children and took comfort in the similar difficulties that we have faced and survived.

This woman was given my name by someone we both know. A year ago. Kelly gave her my contact info last Dec. and she just contacted me a week ago. She could have called last year or last spring and gotten what she needed from me. But nope. She called this week.

Now you might say, what's that got to do with a glimpse or a glimmer? Well, the topic we discussed and she needed encouragement in is exactly why I am on that proverbial path I was just 3 hours ago fairly sure I was jumping off of. Two weeks ago I hit the same kind of slump and had a friend call with a very similar kind of need. After I talked with her awhile I realized, "oh, this was the point."

So the glimmer is just that, just a glimmer. I am really still struggling under the weight of this and feeling like I can't. But that's just the beginning, because I know I CAN. I can do all things through Jesus Christ who gives me strength (Phil. 4:13), and I know that he has a plan and it is for my good, not harm (Jer. 29:11). He just proved it to me as I spoke His words to a woman I have never met and who waited a year to call, a year so that the moment would meet my need also. There is the glimmer of His glory as he works all things together for the good of (me) (Romans 8:28).